Yes, I got a referral!

Sorry for the confusion my last message created for some of you.  I was trying to share news without the luxury of the time to do so properly.  I’ll rewind. 

Last week I cracked.  I had been somewhat patient in my wait for a referral, but that patience abandoned me weeks ago.  By last week I was beyond reason; pretty much losing my sanity when I started to believe that I wouldn’t receive a referral until next month.  As a result, when given the opportunity to take the little guy on a weekend trip away, I thought it would be good for both of us.  He’d get to go to an amusement park and I’d get to get away from the stress of the wait (I hear those of you who have adopted laughing right now).

While we were on our trip I emailed my coordinator to see whether she thought there would be any new baby girl referrals.  Since becoming #1 on the wait list, I had started emailing her once a week to check in.  I figured emailing was less invasive than calling, when I figured she would sit there thinking “would you please stop asking me when you’re getting a referral?”  I usually check in on Monday, but since I had just hit the month mark at #1, decided to accelerate it.  Sometimes our agency gets word that new children have come to the orphanage but they can’t give the referral because they’re waiting on medical info, etc.   My coordinator responded to my question saying “no; nothing right now.”  I figured it would be at least a couple of weeks before I heard anything, so I just resigned myself to another period of staring at the phone, willing it to ring and being disappointed when 3:00 rolled around on weekdays and my agency shut down for the night. 

Oscar and I wrapped up our trip and headed to the airport early, where we sat for hours waiting for our much delayed flight.  The not so perfect ending to a quick trip to the Happiest Place on Earth.  I spent some time emailing friends and colleagues and when our flight was finally about to depart grabbed my phone to turn it off.  I looked down and was more than a little surprised to see this…

Missed calls from my agency!  I was pretty sure I knew what this meant, so I hustled to call my coordinator as quickly as possible while juggling Oscar, my 20 pound monster bag (the orange leather one in the pic below – greatest diaper bag ever, BTW!), my blackberry, my phone and Oscar’s stroller (which I was trying to simultaneously fold up) as we walked down the jetway to the plane.  My coordinator gave me all the relevant details – beautiful little baby girl, 3 months, maybe 4 months old, where she comes from and what her name is and its meaning (which is so perfect).  And she told me at least three times how beautiful she was, which ended up being really nice to hear because the picture of I got wasn’t the greatest quality.  We got off the phone when the flight attendant kept glaring at me, and I kept downloading info from my blackberry as they were shutting the door of the plane.  I was able to save her social report and her photo, so I spent a chunk of the flight looking at those while trying to keep Oscar entertained.  For some reason he wasn’t as enthralled by these things as I was.

Since then, it’s been a whirlwind of activity sharing the great news, and of course accepting the referral.  I managed to snap and post a pic of Oscar in the t-shirt I ordered for him eons ago in a hope that a picture of him could serve to spread the word while I waited to formally accept.  That t-shirt, by the way, was designed and ordered in mid-September, when it looked like my referral was imminent.  It’s now almost too small for Oscar and traveled with us to Mexico and Oklahoma.  That’s how sure I was that I would get my referral before Christmas.  I was so certain I would not get a referral on this trip that it stayed in the closet.

I’ve decided that the next time that things get too stressful in this adoption we’re heading to Disneyland.  I promise not to complete that thought by making some schmaltzy reference to being the place where dreams come true.   Okay, I lied.

February 9, 2010 Posted by Oscar's mom | Adoption, Ethiopia, referral | | 9 Comments

8:28 – Sister

I know that I’ve already told you that Oscar knows how to sign “sister” (rub your thumb along your right jaw and then take both index fingers and meet them together in front of your chest), but please indulge me.  Despite the fact that we already know this sign, we gave it some practice today – and Oscar even said the word “sister” using his words.  Anyone know why?

February 8, 2010 Posted by Oscar's mom | Ethiopia, sign language | | 10 Comments

7:28 – Swim

Let me first say that I now get the Disney thing. We never went to Disneyland or World until I was in college, so I truly expected this to be a bit of a wasted experience for Oscar on most levels. Fun, yes, but I thought he’d miss most of it. Wrong.

My somewhat reserved little guy bolted from his stroller in a dead run when he spied Mickey Mouse holding court on Main Street. When I started humming It’s a Small World he didn’t hit me or grunt repeatedly as he usually does when I dare to sing. Instead, he put his hands on either side of my face and rested his forehead on mine. Remarkable, really.

This afternoon we returned to the hotel for a break and I taught him the sign for “swim” (small breast-stroke moves) and he repeatedly signed it back to me. I was so proud of him that I took him swimming despite the fact it was about 55 degrees outside. Alternating between the somewhat heated pool and overheated hot tub bought us two hours of fun before Oscar’s lips turned, and stayed, blue. Even the magic of Disney wasn’t enough to save us from the biggest fit since Vietnam when I forcibly removed him. He’s sleeping it off now before we head back for our final hours at the park. Two days was nowhere near enough.

February 7, 2010 Posted by Oscar's mom | sign language | | 2 Comments

6:28 – Happy

Jeesh, what a day. First, we made it to Disneyland. Who knew so much went into taking a two year old away from the house for two nights? With all the stuff I packed, we may as well be gone for a month. So much for packing light.

Oscar is still a pretty good traveler, but he’s exerting his independence much more. Makes being in a confined space an absolute joy. Can’t wait to try it on a flight to Dubai.

We didn’t spend a ton of time learning new signs today, but I did teach him “happy”. What else would work here? Happy is signed by making a circular motion with both hands (flat) at chest level, moving down and back up, slightly hitting your chest. He didn’t even attpt this one, but that’s okay. We’ll keep on it.

He’s definitely feeling happy, though. Aside from an expected meltdown when he couldn’t ride Dumbo or the carousel for the third time each, he’s had an extremely happy day. If I had brought my laptop, I could post real pics, but for now all I have is this from the parking lot this morning.

February 6, 2010 Posted by Oscar's mom | sign language | | 1 Comment

5:28 – Signing

Since I spent the evening packing for our weekend getaway, most of Oscar’s sign language came via our Signing Time DVD tonight. However, I did work with him on the word “signing”, which I’m trying to use with him as a cue (if he can’t say a word, I’m trying to both say and sign “sign” so he knows the two are interchangeable. Not sure he gets it yet, but I think he might. Off to Disneyland in the morning!

February 6, 2010 Posted by Oscar's mom | sign language | | No Comments Yet

4:28 – Yes

Oops, got home too late to post last night, but Oscar came through with another sign. He’s seen this one for a very long time, but has refused to actually use it.  Oscar will not answer “yes” or “no” to any question ever posed.  Ever.  He grunts, he yells, he arches his back.  You get the picture . . . but he doesn’t actually say yes or no (or sign them). 

Last night, though I did manage to get him to sign “yes” to milk [you sign yes by making a fist with your right hand and bending your wrist down and up (like you're nodding your fist)].  You know how salespeople trick you into buying things by getting you to say yes to little things they know you’ll say yes to (getting you in the habit of responding positively to them) and then hit you with the big sales push?  I used this technique on Oscar last night.  I knew he wanted milk.  I asked him a series of questions to which the answers were all yes.  I let him give me his standard grunt that means yes.  He did.  And then I pushed him to actually give me the sign when I asked him if he wanted milk.  Success.  Sadly, I think this is only going to work in extreme cases, but for the time being I’m okay with it.  Baby steps.

February 5, 2010 Posted by Oscar's mom | sign language | | 1 Comment

3:28 – Mouse

When I was in college my family had this incredible dog named Sammy.  He was the wildest, smartest, sweetest golden retriever ever known to man.  When Sammy was a puppy, he came in contact with some tiny little mice and after that experience every time we wanted to make him insane we’d point across the room and yell “mouse.”  Sammy would completely lose it, chasing after the invisible mouse.  Somehow it never got old.

Oscar is not Sammy, of course, but in celebration of our upcoming trip to Disneyl*nd, I thought I’d introduce him to the term “mouse.”  He has a Mickey M0use doll that has been sitting in his grocery cart for the past year or so.  Every once in a while he’ll push him around the hall.  “Mouse” is signed by brushing the tip of your nose twice with the tip of the index finger of your right hand.  Very easy.  Oscar picked this one up with no problem at all.  I even captured it on tape with some success.

Today’s real reward, though, came when the little guy curled up with me, looked up at me a little shyly and signed “hug.”  I love sign language.

February 3, 2010 Posted by Oscar's mom | sign language | | 4 Comments

2:28 – Fatal Flaw

It never occurred to me that there might be a problem with my 28 signs in 28 days plan.  Oscar alerted me to it early today, when he point-blank refused to engage in my attempts to learn new signs.  What’s the saying . . . you can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make it float on its back?

I tried to teach him ”tickle”, which he thought was funny, but wanted none of, and then I thought we’d ease on over to “grandpa.”  Now, this should not have been difficult.  He knows the sign for “grandma,” which he uses all the time.  He also has seen the sign for “grandpa” a number of times.  I know he knows how to do this sign.  So, I’m trying it over and over, Nanny Norma starts in too, all to no avail.

It becomes clear Oscar wants nothing to do with this today.  We tried a number of times and he wasn’t having any of it.  Eventually he started a hybrid “grandma” / “grandpa” sign, which appeared to have been borne out of sheer laziness or stubbornness, and I’m certain it was done in disdain.  “Grandma” is signed by touching the thumb of your hand to your chin and moving it out in two arch-shaped motions.  “Grandpa” is similar, but you touch your thumb to your forehead before moving your hand out in the same two arches.  Oscar has decided that if we’re going to press this, he’s going to meet us in the middle.  No more signing “grandma” properly.  Now, when we say sign “grandma” or “grandpa”, he’s decided that he’ll do the arching gesture, but he’ll do it in the middle of his face – not where his hand should be for either sign – but right in the middle.  Why bother with two signs when one sign in the middle gets the point across just as well?  I swear, if he knew how to roll his eyes, he would have while he threw his “grandparent” sign at us.

I now see the error in my ways.  The 365 projects most bloggers engage in are within their control.  Sure, their pictures may suck some days (none of yours, nach), but no one can keep them from their objective, unless someone breaks their camera.  My error was in not taking into consideration that my project is entirely dependent on Oscar’s willingness to learn what I’m trying to teach him.  Sometimes that is an uphill battle.

February 2, 2010 Posted by Oscar's mom | Oscar, sign language | | 6 Comments

The Second Happiest Place on Earth

I’ve been trying and trying to accomplish two travel-related goals prior to going to bring Etta home (which will only happen if I get a referral, I know, but these goals have seemed very important and somewhat urgent recently).  1 – find a way to get one paltry little day off work so I can go to Oklahoma to visit friends and family and 2 – find a way to take Oscar to Disneyl*nd for our Family Day without breaking the bank (i.e. I’m not paying anywhere near $500 just to fly to Orange County.  I mean, seriously?). 

I’ve had no luck with goal #1.   I’ve waged an assault for the last two weeks to obtain a day off.  Today’s request was to take President’s Day “off” (our office is closed but we are supposed to work).  No luck.  Apparently I need to be here in case mayhem breaks out once again.  After hearing that “something” might be happening with respect to a matter(again), I received an email touting a tantalizing fare from San Francisco to So Cal. 

I don’t know about you, but every single time I get one of those emails, the “special fare” is never available.  Never.  Here, it was only good for two days in the next three months, which ended up miraculously being weekend days, and we got the last two seats.  This never happens to me.  I’ve been pricing these tickets for a while, and I paid less than half of what I had been expecting!  Yay – I might even be able to afford a pair of those mouse ears – not personalized, mind you.

Yes, I know it’s silly to take a 2 1/2 year old to Disneyl*nd.  Especially one who doesn’t even know who Mickey is (I know – I have been horribly remiss in my parenting duties in this respect, too), but he does know what the castle and fireworks are (thanks to Meet the Robinsons - still his favorite film), so I think he’s going to be totally thrilled.  Especially if I can find a hotel with a heated pool.

We’re going to Disneyl*nd!!!

February 2, 2010 Posted by Oscar's mom | Our family, travel, vacations | | 6 Comments

1:28 – Hug Me

Turns out one really needs a video camera to capture signs.  Who knew?  Taking the lead from a couple of you, tonight’s word was “hug”, which I tried to turn into “hug me”, but Oscar refused to go there.  He did, however, latch onto “hug” within two seconds, which led to a very enjoyable hour in which it seemed like hugging was apparently something he had wanted to do a lot of.  We’re pretty touchy feely around here, so I’m hopeful that he hasn’t been feeling like I’ve been a little chintzy on the hugs.  I think tomorrow’s word will be “tickle.”

A cross section of hug (which you do by simply crossing your arms in front of your chest).  And, just to share, behind Oscar was my weekend’s project.  An attempt to organize the three million toys that have invaded Oscar’s room.  I’m quite proud of it – it was in a million pieces, which I put together all by myself.  I even decorated the his and her globes – little rhinestones for each city Oscar and Etta have visited or lived in (I just marked Addis for Etta for now).  I’m hoping theirs will be as encrusted with little jewels as my bigger globe is in my office.

 

February 1, 2010 Posted by Oscar's mom | sign language | | 4 Comments

Project 28

Since I’m incapable of doing a 365 project (really, I am), I’ve decided to embark on a 28 day project instead.  Each day this month, Oscar, Nanny Norma and I are going to learn a new sign. 

Why sign more?  I’m coming to terms with the reality that Oscar is not going to suddenly burst forth speaking in sentences.  I’m not coming to terms with the possibility that Oscar is not going to speak eventually, but I do want to figure out a way to bridge the gap between now and the time he can communicate verbally.  I’m also looking into formal programs to help the entire family out in terms of learning ASL or even having a tutor come to the house.  It’s just clear to me that we need a method of communication that is more effective than the hodge-podge of grunts, signs and words that we have in our shared vocabulary.

Right now, Oscar can sign* and/or speak^ the following (off the top of my head, I’m sure I’m missing a few):

Mom^, OMa (Norma)^, Grandma*, Sister^*, Boy*, Girl*, Hat*, Milk*, Ice cream*, Baby*, Signing*, Cookie^*, Cracker*, Cake^, Cereal*, Banana*, Bread*, Egg^, Fish*, Candy*, Cheese*, Tea^, Please*, Thank you*, Sorry*, Ball^*, Play*, Bath*, Car^*, Bus*, Shoes*, Star*, Socks*, Sleep*, Eat*, Drink*, Thirsty*, Hungry*, Monkey* (three words in one – means he wants to walk with his monkey backpack, eat gummy candies (shaped like monkeys) or monkey), Bear*, Dog*, Cat*, Help^*, Hot^*, Cold*, Go^*, More^*, Up^, Down*, Hurt*, Wow^ (my favorite – two syllables), Oh no^ and Uh oh^.

Here’s what I have on our list for this month.  And I feel I should note the lack of vegetables in Oscar’s vocabulary – it’s not that he doesn’t eat them; it’s just that we don’t speak of them.  Kind of like Lord Voldemort in Harry Potter.

Grandpa, Chicken, Soup, Pasta, Yogurt, Swim, Paint, Potty, Walk, Bike, Clean, Talk, TV, Happy, Sad, Soup, Pants, Shirt, Dressed, Read, Yes, No (he uses no, but only when he’s really upset; I would like him to use it as an answer to a question).

Any suggestions?  You families who communicate – what words do your toddlers most frequently use?

February 1, 2010 Posted by Oscar's mom | Oscar, Our family, Parenting, special needs | | 5 Comments

The inevitable . . .

. . . yes, I’m still here post. 

Ever have one of those periods where everything that happens at work is so dramatic that you would love to be able to blog about it, but the reality is that there is so much press about what you’re doing (or, more accurately, what your client is doing) that the mere hint of what’s going on (even on your teeny little blog) could attract more notoriety for your client, which would undoubtedly result in the demise of your career – if you career isn’t already dead simply because of the link between you and the aforementioned notoriety?  I caught myself a little more than a week ago preparing my thoughts to blog about just one tiny little piece of this, but had to stop, since although what was going on was not only on the business news, but also in the main-stream press – locally, nationally and globally – there was just too much risk in talking about it.  It was awful – 10 years of having nothing interesting happen in my professional life and then this – and I couldn’t say a word about it.  So, I didn’t say a word generally.  Because, really, who wants to blog when you can’t blog about the most interesting thing happening around you?

If I can’t blog about *that*, I need to blog about something else, and all those topics seem tired:

- the when am I going to get a referral post – I think I’ve beaten this one to death.  It’s been seven months now since my final, signed home study was delivered to my agency (which is the trigger for going on the wait list for my agency) and I don’t have a referral and I have no idea when I’ll get one.  I’m pretty sure I will get a referral at some point in the future, but blogging about the wait just seems useless and boring.  That, sadly, does not mean that I don’t need to obsess about it, apparently, since I’m doing that with some frequency.

- the what am I going to do about Oscar’s inability to speak and/or understand what’s being said to him post.  This is just too depressing right now, honestly, so I need to not talk about it.

- my career path – boring and seemingly futile right about now.

- Oscar’s potty training – going well, but the interesting aspects of it do not strike me as being appropriate for public discussion.  All I will mention is that if you have a child with SPD, you can likely understand our frustration on this topic.

And that’s it.  I’ve been toiling away at work on something very interesting that I cannot discuss and I go home (when I’m able to do so), I drop exhaustedly into bed, wake up early to play with Oscar and repeat the cycle.  Maybe something new and interesting will happen soon.  Promise I’ll tell when it does.

January 30, 2010 Posted by Oscar's mom | Adoption, Oscar, Waiting, work | | 7 Comments